“If your dreams do not scare you, they are not big enough.” — Ellen Johnson Sirleaf
You may not realize it, but as writers we are all on the same journey. We all start as “wannabes,” hoping to amaze audiences with our eloquence and powerful tales, and so we set out on a quest to become “writers.” Some of us take only a few steps along the path before we give up. Others become legends.
There are a lot of fears that we face along the way.
One of the most basic fears is the fear of criticism. I was terrified to even admit that I wanted to write at age 16, and didn’t willingly show anyone my first story for two years. I know writers who still won’t show their work at age 50.
I’ve seen some writers are so afraid of criticism that they pull perfectly good stories from magazines after acceptance. In fact, many years ago, one of my favorite stories ever in the Writers of the Future contest was pulled by the author for . . . reasons that I’ll never understand.
Years ago, a friend of mine wrote a fine novel but was afraid to send it to a major publisher. He went to a small local publisher instead, and I’m hoping that he will have a great career, but it may be hard to overcome that choice.
I know one great author whose nerves bother her so much that she has to vomit before she speaks in public. You’d never guess it from her mesmerizing speeches.
I know another fine author who for years couldn’t even begin to put words on paper until he was good and drunk.
And so it goes. We all have fears, but they don’t go away. Neither do our dreams.
So what can we do?
First, face those fears. Acknowledge them. It feels a little better when you admit to them in public.
I once had a high school English teacher who confronted me. She said, “You don’t know it, but you’re a writer. You have to face that fact. You have to prepare for it. Someday it’s going to hit you, and the words will just come tumbling out, and they won’t stop.” At the time, I planned on becoming a physician, so I didn’t even admit that I’d secretly purchased a typewriter and was working on a novel. It might have saved some time if I’d told her that I wanted to be a doctor who wrote on the side. Instead, years later, I began writing a poem—and have never been able to stop.
So you confront your fears, and you make a plan to realize your dreams. Maybe your first step is to show a story to a friend or a writing group. Or perhaps it’s time to submit a novel, or buy a book on writing, or take a class, or—you probably know what you need to do next.
Confronting your fears doesn’t make them go away, but it will build courage. That’s what courage is, confronting your fears. If you continuously confront your fears, they will diminish.
Are you afraid that others won’t love your story idea? Get over it. There are people who hate Shakespeare. Think of your favorite novel, then look up the reviews for it on Amazon.com or Goodreads. Someone will hate it. Remember, twelve editors rejected Harry Potter before an editor accepted it . . . and helped turn it into a bestselling novel of all time.
Small successes will do even more to help you build confidence.
I was terrified to show anyone my stories until I went to college. I took a short story to an editor at the writing lab at BYU and asked her to teach me how to handle some of the tricky punctuation problems. She began reading, and after two pages quit making any editing marks at all. Instead, she laughed in the right places, became terrified in the right places, then burst into tears at the end, and said, “If your write this well, no one gives a damn whether you know how to punctuate.”
I realize now that she didn’t do much to help me punctuate any better, but she did help me overcome my fear of showing my work to others.
So I entered the story into a contest, and won a small cash prize. But that small success really helped fuel my dreams, and within eighteen months, I got my first multi-book contract.
As a writer, I suspect that I know what you really want. You want to learn to put words on paper in such a way that your stories feel magical, so that they ultimately both transport and transform your reader. That’s what most of us really want, in our hearts. Admit it.
“If your dreams do not scare you, they are not big enough.” Dream big, and face your dreams.
Special shout-out to Stormy White who had her first novel, From Beneath, recently published.
The suicide of Ruth Markham is a mystery to Mae Osborne. Ruth was wealthy, in good health, and looking forward to retirement. Almost as puzzling is the bequeath of a strangely shaped piece of land on the bluffs of the Mississippi River. When Janie Jackson, a young attorney, informs Mae that Ruth has left her the property, she omits that Ruth’s last act before her suicide was an attempt to stop the land from going to Mae.
Unsure herself how the land is now in Mae’s name, Janie offers to show Mae and her grandson, Andy, the land. Without understanding why, Janie dreads going to the property and asks Casey, the niece of her office partner, to accompany her.
Andy is pleased to spend the summer with Mae while his parents are out of the country, but both he and Casey find Janie’s behavior bizarre and irrational.
Too late, they discover Janie’s dread is based on fact and Mae understands her friend’s suicide. Only Casey’s uncle, Craig, understands they are lost and in peril.